I'm suppose to be brave. Strong to face anything that is thrown to me. But why can't I now? I need the strength and I need the courage.

Everytime he gives me butterflies but what can I do? Tell him and make him think I'm weird? No way! That's not the way. But If I won't ever know what could be. Dear God, please tell me what I should do... I don't want to face what if's anymore. I wanna live in the moment and not regret any of it at all. You make me laugh and all but somehow you do keep me hanging. I need to know.