Wanna know what I hate? I hate feeling angry at no apparent reason, feeling sad and useless. I know, that those are there not to make me have this sort of emotions... But what can I do? I feel so helpless, and at the mercy of my own emotions. This is all God's plan, a small part in the big picture. Dear Allah, please hear my prayers and know that I really do Love him. Thank you for everything that you have given me, but please Allah, make this love of mine with him last, til end of time. Bring us back together and make our love a meaningful one that is not just a blessing to us, but a blessing to everyone around us. Please Allah, with you only, I could go through this. For now, I'll let patience overwhelm me. Shakilah akan bersabar.