My one true, favorite person that I would never ever want to lose ever. He is the only person I really feel so comfortable with, no matter what happens in between... We hold on to feelings that seems so hard to be demolished from the start till where we are now. His smile, his presence give me strength to go through each day with a smile, and a promise that the next day will always be better no matter what challenges that we would be facing... Yes he is my kryptonite, but in a good way. I get weak at my knees around him but at the same time I feel powerful as nothing can ever happen to me. That is how amazing he is. One day, I would like to open up his eyes and show him, how amazing he actually is. Amazing and tremendously perfect in my eyes. He can be wearing slippers and torn up clothes but I'll still think that he looks dashing, because he don't need all those things for him to ooze out his great personality with. He have grown so much the past few years and pretty mature and goal stricken, that sometimes it does scares me a little. I hope, one day, Insyallah he will be the Father to my kids that I will have. Love, don't give up on what we have. I know the love that we have is as strong as it first started, we just can't put it where it suppose to be. Insyallah one day, we will get to how we were before. I put all my trust in Allah to bring us back together. Amin.

Wanna know what I hate? I hate feeling angry at no apparent reason, feeling sad and useless. I know, that those are there not to make me have this sort of emotions... But what can I do? I feel so helpless, and at the mercy of my own emotions. This is all God's plan, a small part in the big picture. Dear Allah, please hear my prayers and know that I really do Love him. Thank you for everything that you have given me, but please Allah, make this love of mine with him last, til end of time. Bring us back together and make our love a meaningful one that is not just a blessing to us, but a blessing to everyone around us. Please Allah, with you only, I could go through this. For now, I'll let patience overwhelm me. Shakilah akan bersabar.

By the looks of it, I don't think things between me and Raif is ever gonna work out ever again. Ever since the misunderstanding, we barely talk and I barely see eye to eye. He is not the boy I used to feel so close to. Yes! Change is evident but that doesn't mean you run away from one person just cause you've got someone new. I can't help it. We are just not that close anymore, I can do nothing about it. So we'll see how things go and make amends in between but no matter what, it's still hard to go back where we were from.