It's the 22nd all over again. We got together 13 months ago. Things became shaky and we ended things in February. Its officially 5 months apart. No matter the distance, we know at the end of the day we still go back to each other. However, it's a little heart breaking to not be able to do what we usually do. Holding hands, kissing, spent time together and just cuddling like how it were once. Now we are just leading our own lives, and if he ever remembers me, than its just by luck and yes somewhat I am still appreciative of it. Sometimes, I do wish that things would be different, things would be better. I keep holding on to that one special thing that we share, but it's getting harder every time. I want to be his forever Insy'allah. I know that if God put us in such a situation, He will guide us through it at the same time. I have been saying that I should accept the fact that we are different now, and and should not bother each other with our emotional pains, whoever I always finds it hard to do it and I'll end up back at square one. Where the remembering is the trying to stop to so that the forgetting can start to take place.

Today, I am gonna be reformatting my old phone. Text messages that meant so much before are all gonna be deleted. Whatsapp texts are all gonna be erased. Everything gonna be starting new. Say goodbye to the past and start fresh like a new exercise book that will be written on soon enough. In that phone lies, so many memories, but change need to happen. Like the saying "the forgetting can only begin when the remembering is over." So goodbye to all the past, I'll still keep close to the memories, there just won't be anymore evidence at all, of that certain someone and how my love actually started. What is left is a just a phone, empty like a new one. So here goes, there is no going back.