Now I’m about to give you my heart, but remember this one thing. I’ve never been in love before, so you gotta go easy on me. I heard love is dangerous once you fall you never get enough but the thought of you leaving is not so easy for me. Don’t hurt me, desert me, don’t give up on me. Don’t use me. Or ever take advantage of me and never make me sorry I ever counted on you. I understand that I’ve been here before, thought I found someone I thought I finally could adore but you kinda failed my test, you got to know her better and I wasn’t the only one anymore. I really hope you understand, that if you wanna take my hand, you'll put yours over my heart and I'll promise to be careful from the start. I trust you're in love with me. Very carefully, I've never been so vulnerable.

I want to be the only girl you're in love with, I want to be the only girl you give goodnight kisses to, I want to be the only girl you cuddle with feeling each other warmth, I want to be the only girl you hug and hesitate to let go every time. I want to be the only girl that you'll be proud of every time you point at across a room of crowded people. I want to be the only girl that has your whole heart and not parts of it. I want to be the only girl you say you're in love with and mean every single part of it. I want to be the only girl that sees you for you, and accepts it. No matter how good or bad, I want to be the only girl that could see that you shine more than the brightest stars in the cloudless night sky. But, I guess for now I can't be that girl. Cause your heart is in two places and i don't think i can do anything about it. Why do you have to be so right, but so wrong at the same time. My heart's in a million pieces, cause now I know that the girl i knew is ceasing to exist anymore. If i could wish for anything, I would just wish you won't be in love with someone else, and also not have anyone waiting for you. But the only thing I could do is to do what i think is right. And just be ready and strong to face anything that comes along.

This are two of the most important boys in my life. Asraf and Faiz. I know I only know them this year, but they really have taught me so much. A whole lot, I won't lie. Can both of you make up and be friends again. Cause I don't like being the middle person between you guys. Both of them made me realize that things are not what it seems like all the time. That surprises are always around any corner. And miracles can happen anytime, especially when you least expect it! So no more fights between both of you, no more jealousy happening between one another. Just know that besides all of this jealousy, fights, you guys are awesome together. So stay being that, and stay being the diamonds in the rough. Cause you boys are just amazing.

If I told you one thing i loved about you, I would be lying because I can't say I love one part of you and ignore the rest of you. I love everything about you and to say that i love only one things ignores the beauty of your whole soul. I love everything about you the good and the bad, its every part of you that makes you who you are. And to say i love only one thing ignores your whole existence.

"i’m scared i won’t add up to your expectations. i’m not perfect, i’m not gorgeous, i don’t have the prettiest smile or the most banging body. i’m not going to be cute every second of the day & i’m not always going to look my greatest. i’m not always going to know the right thing to say & the right time to say it. i am very emotional & i do have pretty bad moodswings. i usually over react over dumb little things & cry over nothing. i’m afraid i won’t add up to that girl you used to love, but i am willing to try my hardest. i get jealous but that only proves that i care enough not to lose you. i make assumptions & i will argue until i get my point across. i’m impatient, insecure & at times, selfish - but i’m trusting you with something that i know you can break. i’m going to trust you with everything i’ve got & put my heart out for everyone to see. i’m going to accept you for the person you are & love you for the person you help me to be. so if you choose to love me, then love me for me - for who i am, for what i hope to become, for the drama that you’re going to have to go through & for the flaws i come with."

How do you stay mad at someone without feeling guilty? It's so interesting how i can never stay mad at him. Why do you have to be just so sweet? Seeing you outside waiting, for me, how do you stay mad with that kind of person? And when you grab my hand when I'm trying to be angry with you, it just melts away every single anger, unable me to continue with the wrath. It's amazing how we got this far...