Two times in a freakin' row. What does that means? How would I know I don't control my dreams. I hated myself for what i did yesterday. I'm sorry. That's the only thing I could do now. Apologize... I wish I could back up and did it differently. I usually get scared of doing things because I'm afraid of what is gonna happen after.

$109.45++, that's for today. I feel so bad. The week's finishing, looks like the theme gonna change. I'm going to the doctor's, back to high school, going to college the next and i don't know what's more in store. I'm still free on Friday and I've still yet to watch Dear John, if you know me, you know where I'm going with this... ;)