Dissapointed, clueless but feel so guilty to be positive at the same time. I wonder why? I didn't do great nor good in my mid year exams... I know. I'm not proud of it. I'm just lost of what am I suppose to feel actually. I want to be positive but it seems so wrong.

I have always been saying that I will be trying harder for the next exam but I've never actually done it. Those were just words. I still have time for the next exams, but what about right now? Feel like my life is passing by but there is no meaning at all in it. Just struggling to survive the day. I don't want to skim trough everyday anymore. I want everyday to have an impact in my life or at least someones life. Walking trough the race not even walking fast to try to win it.