Dissapointed, clueless but feel so guilty to be positive at the same time. I wonder why? I didn't do great nor good in my mid year exams... I know. I'm not proud of it. I'm just lost of what am I suppose to feel actually. I want to be positive but it seems so wrong.

I have always been saying that I will be trying harder for the next exam but I've never actually done it. Those were just words. I still have time for the next exams, but what about right now? Feel like my life is passing by but there is no meaning at all in it. Just struggling to survive the day. I don't want to skim trough everyday anymore. I want everyday to have an impact in my life or at least someones life. Walking trough the race not even walking fast to try to win it.

I'll admit that this year I had the best Birthday ever with wishes from friends and families, prayers from some people...I think they did pray for me?, Presents, spending time with friends for 2 days straight.

Presents
I got a new phone been using it for a week already if you guys have not realize it... It's the LG KU990R. The touch screen phone. Loving it a lot. It was an early present from my parents. They are the best. Sardine, Shaf and Danya got me a cool bag, with lots of other present inside, mostly sweets, a cool funky shades (glitter purple and black) and the HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3 DVD. OMG thanks a lot guys.

14 May 2009
Last day of exams. Went to school for an hour I think... Took malay listening comprehension and waited for Shaf before going back home to change. Changed and went out with Sardine to town... Ate LJS and went to Kinokuniya to get a magazine. Wasted time at Kinokuniya reading and looking at BOP, Tiger Beat, Teen Vogue, Seventeen and lots of other mags. The whole day we were both trying to do the Hoedown Throwdown dance. Go try doing it with your friends, It's super duper fun. Met Shaf later at Habourfront and walk around Vivo before going makan. A video was taken of Shaf eating fishballs. It was hilarious.

15 May 2009
Had a career day in school. The training was fun-ney. The talks for the different courses was very boring afterwards. Went home to change and met Sardine at Serangoon MRT station. It was raining heavily and I had to layan her karena. But ended up she got physically bullied by me (all incidents were unintentioned). They organised a small, cute "surprise party" for me. No idea what i ate but it was delicious. That was my first time going to Danya's house, meeting her mum (she scares me a little) Hahaha. I can never forget her mum... Went up Danya's room to see Dozer but end up stuck up in her room. That was where the presents from them came in. Took lots of pictures and 2 videos. Be putting it up after editing it, that if I know how to edit it.. So you guys wait patiently... Or you guys could just come up to me and ask to watch the video, the original piece before editing.

Ok that's all! I wanna watch HSM3!!!!! WOO HOO!!!!

Should I ask you out? Or should i wait?